Contentment

The past couple of days I have been challenged to be content with where God has me right now. This is such a difficult thing for me because I like being busy. Right now I am staying in Newberg and living with some friends and job hunting. I have this month to find something and then after May if nothing has come up I will be moving to San Diego to live with my grandparents. However, I am realizing many things during these past two weeks. One of them is I hate having no plans. I struggle with no busyness or things planned out for me. I hate it! But also have realized that there is a reason that God has set apart this time for me to not be working or be doing anything. It is hard for me because I can make excuses often as to why I can’t do something such as have my time with God when I am busy and have things that need to get done. But now I have no excuse. I have all the time it is just a matter of me doing it and being faithful. I never realized what a struggle this was until now. It is hard because I don’t like struggle and I recently had a season in my life where things were truly great. I finally began to love school and where I am at but now it is difficult and hard. It is not that I want to quit or any of that, but it is more that I want to be content with where I am. I want to learn to be content in all season of life, especially this one. I want to trust God and be faithful in the small things. I want to not be looking ahead or be anxious for what is to come but I want to be faithful and push through now. I trust God probably about half of the time. But I want to trust God all the time. It is hard when you don’t see the end result or even know the next steps but something inside of me says “Keep pushing through”. I trust God and want to do whatever his will is. God help me be content with where I am and what I have. Faithful in small things, faithful in the big things.